empathy is like a curse hurting and loving
at the same time the sounds of cruelty
sing an ugly song the images scorch my eyes my strength within
subsides as my body succumbs to emotions pain is magnified as the suffering continues unkind people saying one thing doing another nothing but liars abuse of all forms
killing innocence harming possible futures the evil sleep well
recounting their deeds the sufferers of their wickedness do not grieving with the harmed wrap them in my being losing respect and hope for this world and aching for the vulnerable
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons.*
Every damn day. This life, a daily grind of excruciation.
Always having to adjust mentally, physically and emotionally.
Moving through my day as cautiously as possible.
Pushing through the pain, feeling productive & proud.
I’m beyond the agony when I’m able.
But some days I have no spoons and I go
Down, down, down into the darkness of the grave**
*Source: “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock” by T.S. Eliot **Source: “Dirge Without Music” by Edna St. Vincent Millay
Pushed over the edge.
Waves of emotions coursing.
Tears flow unlocking the deep hurts.
Loud yells projected to match the pain.
Feelings challenged. Resolutions sought. This torture ends now.
Distancing from the anger, the fear and the abysmal. Letting it go.
Choosing peace, choosing harmony, choosing growth.
Deep relaxation and openness stage a presence.
Self-soothed in this self-connection.