Necessary Rituals

 

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A sudden weariness takes hold of me.

Yawns escape with more frequency as the battle to fight them begins.

And the nightly ritual starts again.

I shut down the lights in the room and head in the direction of the soft place.

The companion water bottle and cell phone walk with me.

One last bathroom trip to empty the bladder and guide the toothbrush around in my mouth. A vigorous spit and done.

My clothing flies into the hamper, my glasses land on the makeup table.

Getting closer.

I delicately walk towards the bed avoiding the edges, protecting my toes.

I made it, sinking down into the cushiness of my bed. Ahhhh escapes my lips.

Just a few more things to do before I can meet the sandman again.

In pops the nighttime medication to do its work.

One last check on the cell phone. It’s off and charging.

Snuggling in to find the sweet spot which will comfort me best. It doesn’t take long.

Finally, I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

Slowly, my breathing finds an even pace.

And I begin to trail off in this life to end up in another.

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Sunshine Blogger Award!

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Wow! Two awards in one week! Thank YOU, Lori, for this one! I guess that means you like me, you really like me! 🙂

I’ve been tagged by the lovely LORI’S BOOK SHELFREADS  Adorers of books, show her some love!

WHAT IS THE SUNSHINE BLOGGER AWARD?

The Sunshine Blogger Award is given to those who are creative, positive and inspiring while spreading sunshine to the blogging community.

THE RULES

  1. Thank the person/persons that nominated you and link back to their blog.
  2. Answer the 11 questions your nominator has given you.
  3. Nominate 11 other people and give them 11 new questions to answer.
  4. List the rules and display the award.

11 Questions from Sara

What book are you currently reading? 

The Spawn of Lilith – Dana Fredsti
Time Shards – Dana Fredsti & David Fitzgerald
Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents – Lindsay C. Gibson, PsyD
Fire and Fury – Michael Wolff

If you were stranded on a deserted island and you were only allowed one book, which book would you take with you? 

John Hopkins Symptoms and Remedies – The Complete Home Medical Reference

Which highly acclaimed author can’t you get into? 

Deepak Chopra

Do you buy books based off the cover or the summary? 

Depends, sometimes it’s one or the other, sometimes both

Most read author? 

David Fitzgerald

The last book you gave a five-star rating? 

Alpha God – The Psychology of Religious Violence and Oppression by Hector A. Garcia

If you had one pill that would transport you to a fictional world, which fictional world would you choose? 

Equality by Edward Bellamy

What would you rather be doing right now than answering these questions? 

Nothing, this post is my daily contribution to I Write Her. Thx for the inspiration! 🙂

Which book are you constantly thinking about even though you read it a long time ago? 

Looking Backward – 2000 to 1887 by Edward Bellamy

Favorite book villain? 

Svidrigailov of Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Where do you like to read? 

Curled up on the couch with a hot cup of tea.

My Questions:

  1. What type(s) of books do you enjoy immersing yourself in?
  2. If Fahrenheit 451 became a reality, what book(s) would you save from the fire?
  3. Which author has shaped your ideology?
  4. What appeals to you when you are browsing through bookshelves?
  5. Catcher in the Rye or A Million Little Pieces?
  6. What impresses you the most while reading good books?
  7. What book has drawn you in so completely that you wished you lived in that world?
  8. Does reading make you want to write your own book or does it just push you to buy more books?
  9. What book was insightful so as to influence you in a different direction?
  10. Describe the perfect character.
  11. Do you multi-task when you read or focus solely on the book?

I’d like to tag – AimeeDianaShera LaynVicky LeighNatalieSusan and SuePamelaKayleighAlex’s BooksLeftyKentucky Book Lover

I look forward to your posts! 🙂

Painful Confusion

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Shocking upheaval delivered unexpectedly.

The heartache pounded harshly inward.

Internal distress burnt a tortuous red.

A deep cut surrounded by a million small tears.

The stress widened all the wounds.

Anguish and heartbreak followed.

The future, unending and suffering agony.

Sorrow and grief dictated the next steps for survival.

This daedal misery mimicked a slow death.

Love left in a upset heap, an untidy disarray of hurt.

This… this from someone who cherished commitment.

Well-Intentioned

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Ending an email or a letter with Sincerely always seemed formal and stuffy to me. It never really felt genuine anyway. I choose to use Take care instead. The person’s welfare is important to me. I wonder if they ever really hear that?

Recently I’ve begun to say Be well instead. It still implies that a person’s well-being is important to me; it just shifts the message slightly. Take care says “please watch out for yourself because you never know what could come your way” while Be well says “farewell and feel well.” The tone is a positive directive to just do everything in your power to being or feeling good. I really like that.

It seems so minor, I know. But Take care feels hesitant and Be well is bold and forceful almost. It’s the intention behind the latter ending which makes me want to use it more now. We could all use a little more support, I think.

Coincidentally, I recently learned of the philosophy of eudaimonia. Aristotle states in his Nicomachean Ethics that it means to be doing and living well. What I understand about it is that one can achieve this state of well-being through the pursuit of knowledge, honesty, kindness, and courage. Using a rational approach to life such as gaining scientific knowledge was also considered valuable.

It’s true that when we apply rational and critical thinking to situations, they tend to go a lot smoother. The outcome, even if a disastrous one, will likely lead to an easier adjustment to that situation. Seems like a formula for success.

What I also find interesting is that it helps me to understand my desire to use Be well instead of Take care. The former implies taking charge, doing with intention, achieving goals – proactive (rational); whereas the other is waiting to see what happens to you and then respond – reactive (irrational).

I really prefer to offer words saying I’m interested in their well-being rather than one of only hoping they can make it through in life.

And for that, I think I’ll Be well.

Mystery Blogger Award 2018!

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I was nominated for The Mystery Blogger Award! Considering that I’ve really only been at this for the last 6 months here on WordPress, I’m honored. 🙂 Thank you, Reggie German! Please venture over to his blog; he’s got some great stuff!

I also (rules or not) want to thank, Okoto Enigma, for creating this award. At the moment, I have not read her blog, but I certainly plan on it. She is the creator of this excellent award; an award she describes best:

Mystery Blogger Award is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging, and they do it with so much love and passion.
– Okoto Enigma

Here are the rules:

  • Put the award logo/image on your blog
  • List the rules.
  • Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  • Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  • Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  • You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
  • Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  • Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
  • Share a link to your best post(s)

Questions posed by Reggie:

  1. Are you in the occupation you planned on being in? If not, what changed your course? Never in a million years did I think I would be a stay-at-home expresser of my thoughts who would publish a book but I did! My journey down the path of writing started rather late in life, and I credit a wonderful inspirational human for that.
  2. What’s one thing that people always misunderstand about you? For those who don’t know me well, I don’t think they realize that I always say what I mean and do as I say. They are surprised when they can count on me.
  3. Do you have a routine when you write? I do, and it’s described here  Read, think, write
  4. How would you describe your writing style? It’s always been very important to me to be honest, heartfelt and relay a sense of my understanding of the world in my writing.
  5. What is the most embarrassing thing you’ve ever worn? A shiner under my left eye!

Three Random Things About Me:

  1. I was an Army brat born in West Berlin, Germany before the wall came down.
  2. Have been married twice and bore two children even though I frequently said I would do neither when I was younger. Fortunate for me, I changed my mind.
  3. You can easily see I possess the perfect “footprints in the sand” imprint every time my wet feet step on a dry mat.

I Nominate:

Elleguyence

Glover Gardens

Fauxcroft

Yaskhan

Unbolt Me

Dark Anki

Aston Kamunde

The Feathered Sleep

Poetpaspoetry

Paul Lenzi

Here are the questions for my nominees:

  1. Who is the most influential person in your life and why?
  2. What prompted you to begin writing consistently?
  3. Name three places you’d like to visit.
  4. How many years is your longest friendship?
  5. If you were forbidden to ever write again, what would you be doing instead?

 

My Favorite Post:

Narrowing it down to one was just too tough! I ended up with three for these reasons:

The Process of Life and Waking Up for they are both daily occurrences.

Carotid Wine The first piece of fiction I imagined. The title was killer too.

Fire And Ice

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The fire in you warms me.
My coolness keeps you from burning to a crisp.

Manage my happiness! 

But my needs are subject to your approval.
Navigating your ego is treacherous.

Peace and quiet, no conflict!

There’s no room for mine.

Mysterious Life

 

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An unending, voluminous vastness gave us life.

The purpose is anyone’s guess.

Life knows how to adapt when its environment preys on it. Survival is the by-product of encoded genetic material forcing nature to continue but also to thrive and even rise above within their given circumstances.

For what reason does life have a built-in switch to influence continuation of a species though? Where does this desire to continue on and evolve come from?

The reason is a mystery; one that has long been pondered since the beginning of existence. We can consciously think of these things now more than ever. Not that we have any answers yet as to why we exist and for what purpose.

So many smart people can write book after book and provide research to explain all the things we have learned. It’s a never-ending mountain of information that details so much of what was unknown before. It’s beyond comprehension for some, inspiring to others to know even more.

And yet, no answer for what the purpose of existence even is.

But in the end, does it even matter? Animals and insects will be guided somewhat by instinct, vegetation continually seeking to fulfill what has driven them for millennia – to not wither and die. Humans will continue to exist the best way they know how. Influences in life will force them to decide what that life will look like; it’s their choice.

Nature consciously decided to be here, and we’ll probably never know the answer why.