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The Way To Love

Love soothes, but only with genuine empathy. 
Don’t remove the struggle from my control. 
Let me gain the knowledge I need to grow. 
Be by my side, watch me heal. 
See the places where it takes me.

Love doesn’t fix things. It just eases the conflict. 
Don’t be the answer to my problems, my wannabe protector. 
Be my companion on my own personal journey. 
Enjoy my company, enhance my experience, 
and inspire me by the path you take.

Love doesn’t happen in a vacuum. It needs you and me, together. 
Free from distrust, anxiety, worry, anger, and shame. 
It’s a warm place, filled with comfort and ease. 
It’s a space where wholeness resides. 
 Our happy place created together.  

Love feels easy, but people are hard. They’re complicated and stupid. 
Don’t sabotage a good thing, intentionally or unintentionally. 
Remember I’m who you love; you know why you do. 
Fill any distance with kindness and care. 
Especially those times when you’re sad.

Love always wants more quality-rich lingering moments of sweetness. 
Any effort on your part to provide them is cherished. 
Your reward is acquiescence to almost anything. 
Comfort and pleasure is our prize. 
Don’t hold back. Give me what I crave.

Love is required. And love is needed.                         

Betrayal

Your actions made me feel like I wasn’t special to you.

You claimed…
     I was important to you. Did you show it?
     I was a good friend. But not enough for you.
     You loved me unconditionally, but I was too much to take.
     I was unique and different, but I was too combative.
     I was such a role model, but indeed too honest for you.
     It’s good that I’m honest. But I just wasn’t sensitive to others.

I was just me.
And you didn’t know how to take me.

Then I doubted myself because of you.
I shouldn’t have.

Our connection ceased to exist because of your selfishness and your ego.

A war of two individuals with no victory for you or me.
You gave up while I was actually still fighting for us. 

Then I let you go…. willingly.
Self-preservation was required.
I realized that all you would do is continue to injure me.

Just know…

I am important. 
      I have value. 
           I am special.   
               And you will never fuck me over again.

Intimate Nestle

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Toa Heftiba

comfort
a meaningful connection
allowing breathing space

skin on skin
eyes on eyes
schmooze with me

two voices speaking a common language
warm embrace that’ll linger
long past being intertwined as one

 

Inspired by Eugenia – BrewNSpew Cafe – 11/5/18

Privileged

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I shed my layers of hardness.
The best and the worst of me exposed.
Laid bare all my unspoken evils.
I trusted you’d see me as sane.

My heart wrapped around yours for safe keeping.
Pleasure replaced agony.
Excitement replaced fear.
Love embodied our present.

Am I privileged or are you?

Maybe

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The gift of time, effort, and quality is love.
Intimate sincerity landing softly in the heart.

I’m not receiving what you think you’re giving.

Maybe you don’t understand what love is?
Maybe I don’t know how to receive it?
Maybe I expect too much?
Maybe you don’t give enough?

Maybe I was wrong?

Three Little Words

Don’t say

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but rather…

soothe an ache
hold my hand
watch me sleep
rub my back
make me laugh
be with me
talk to me
play with me
dry my tears
keep me warm
listen to me
don’t be arrogant
kiss my lips
really know me
get me soup
touch without expectation
ease my sorrow
hug my soul
cry with me
dance with me
please be vulnerable
make eye contact
forgive my failings
care for yourself
sex me right
cook us dinner
walk with me
don’t lie, ever
read to me
hold me close
silence my demons
reach into me
never leave me