these shiny gifts
we always tell stories
things that shine
– allure –
a lure for
let daydreams be poems
& poems daydreams
lilac and yellow freesias
warm sugared milk
there are years of wasps
& years of
but most of the time
the consultant said a shadow was showing on the scan
try not to worry
but once the words were out
veiled darkness began seeping
birthing shadow spawn & we knew
from now on
there would always be shadows
a moment sitting with grief that twists I pause - a sip of strong coffee - a bite of whisky-infused chocolate (redundant birthday gift) you are still here & I am (still) afraid
*TRIGGER WARNING: MISCARRIAGE*
We can keep trying, he says. We won’t give up.
She washes freshly red-spotted sheets, pegs them on the line, listens to the merciless wind smothering hope. Later, she dreams about finding a sparrow’s nest in the hedge, hears hungry soft-feathered downy babies crying to be fed. But when she looks again, they have disappeared.
We can keep trying, she says. We won’t give up.
UK-based writer Jane Ayres completed a Creative Writing MA at the University of Kent in 2019 aged 57. She has work in Dissonance, Confluence, Lighthouse, Streetcake, The North, The Poetry Village, Door is a Jar, Kissing Dynamite, (mac)ro(mic), Versification, Crow & Cross Keys, Ample Remains, Sledgehammer, and The Forge. This is Jane’s first feature on The Short of It.
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