These words found at Fractal Enlightenment were a powerful reminder to me that I don’t always feel this way. Believing those words can be difficult when life drags me to dark places sometimes. Especially that last bit – deserving to be loved. It still pisses me off that situations in my past contribute to that feeling. Shitty parenting being the crux of it. My parents didn’t know how to do it right. They’re gone, and I’m still here. The aftermath of that was up to me to heal.
For the most part, I’m ok. Actually, better than just ok. My life is good and most of my moments are too. I’ve made sure to surround myself with people who ground me. Now, I just need to feel the words of this meme more days than not.
I guess working this out is a part of life’s journey.
It’s different than having a purpose.
We need to have value in the world we inhabit.
And we want to fit in.
But do we? Are we really important enough?
How do we become important
and closely connected to our community, to ourselves?
Does it mean we’re good or just special?
Is it the amount of praise we get which tells us that?
Be well in your center, and
in the movements taken within your world.
The care of yourself you take to belong,
the decisions you make affecting you,
choose wisely –
this gives you relevance.
In the valued becoming closely connected,
what matters most is
how we love ourselves and others.