Redux
i feel the incessant battles
of internal opposing forces
my personal war
feelings clashing
emotions raging
peace alluding me
rational thoughts tip-toe in intermittently
it’s a daily challenge
every minute
of every day
seeking tranquility in the chaos
hoping for a forced equilibrium
but usually tossed about by my innate human nature
developing intentional maturity
gains me some stability
slow and teetering baby steps
in the direction of wisdom
age and experience lend a hand
slowing down the urge to take up arms
so fed up
and just tired and weary
the beginning of acceptance
or true insight
not really sure
the continual striving for harmony during this brief stint
a life well-lived
i hope
with death comes peace
ending a lifetime of struggle
balancing the scales
i will not know it though
sure doesn’t seem fair
Originally published 8/13/2018 on I Write Her. Reposted with revisions.