we all ponder what is truth not one of us with the same outlook theories or hypothesis’ as varied as the lives which surround us
haven’t we all witnessed people who have such a zest that life never seems to end and have written a multitude of stories over the norm possessing a zeal which feels absent in us accomplishments being even fewer
and those at the end of a relatively long life saying “it’s enough” with a need or a want to move on having endured so much hardship and pain just wanting it over with
or those who just plod along living relatively simple but meaningful, loving lives contributing a harmony of sorts
if god is life and life is nature and nature dictates our decisions then maybe it’s the sheer will to remain alive that what drives us should guide us deciding our ultimate purpose or names this so-called god we want to prove
this belief of having a much-needed pull for when the chips are down something we engage with when it’s all too much
i would submit that sheer will is supreme this internal force is a pressure to endure and can be what rules us wow, what a concept to get behind
they say you can manifest what you want yeah, but not without effort i would submit you are your own god and that god is will
These thoughts were inspired by this conversation about belief systems between Ricky Gervais and Russell Brand. The bit about it starts at approximately 33:40, but feel free to listen to it in its entirety as it was an interesting conversation.
Many things have gotten me through these last 58 years in no particular order of preference or admiration. A lot has tried to take me down too, but here I am anyways. 😉
In 2020, I’m grateful for my good friends even though the hugs, the conversations, and the interactions are few and far apart. Thankfully, my husband is my rock and a strong support person, as well as my boys, who I’m in contact with just about every day. I’m genuinely missing their hugs, though. But we’ll get there!
Working from home was the norm for me before Covid-19, so that hasn’t changed. I will always be immensely grateful I get to do my gig in the comfort of my surroundings. My “prison,” which some people might call it, is my she-cave, and it’s safe. It works for me!
My family and close friends have, until this point, been spared in this pandemic, and that calms me. I’m hoping that a vaccine will soon reduce the cases and the death rates we are currently seeing. I would be most grateful for that!
Even with all the health issues I’ve dealt with and am dealing with so far this year, I’m glad that I have a strong will and determination to overcome these challenges. Although my outlook has not always been positive, it has remained solidly in the corner of “you can get through this.” So, that’s something I’m eternally grateful to possess.
When I look back over the last three years, the WordPress community also gives me much to be thankful about. The friends I’ve made, the incredible work of others I get to read, the conversations – good and bad – I’ve had, all of it has made me a better person. I thank you all for that. Being able to create, to articulate my world and my thoughts, and do it in such a loving and supportive environment, well, I’ve not had it this good in a long time. I’m truly grateful for what I’ve gotten out of this writing journey.
Going back even further, I’m thankful to be here. Life is draining, but it’s also thoroughly excellent. So, I’m grateful to be able to take the good with the bad. Here’s to the next moments that await me. 🙂
awake and alert the mind focuses on the tasks at hand thoughts aligned to achieve results
i am pleased
day dreams slip in swirling from one fantasy to the next thoughts drifting in pleasure
i am captured
sleep beckons my attention wide awake with intrusion no, thankfully not tonight thoughts cease momentarily
i am relieved
nightmares force me awake jumbling incoherent images rousing heart-pumping emotions thoughts gone haywire and weird
i am frightened
always pondering images, words, feelings flitting in and about never-ending and overbearing
sometimes...they land on paper
chapters closed and resolved
they remain in my heart and mind
not quite addressed, fearful of consequences
i yell them at the hologram before me
the need to purge anger arises
they land on my cheeks
the need to feel overwhelms
i push them into the deep recesses, locked away
remaining hidden from myself
Frankly, between the impeachment and now this COVID-19 pandemic, I’m feeling a bit unsure of how life will go on from here. Add to that, it’s an election year. 2020 will go down as one of the most controversial of my lifetime. The creation of all these current restrictions for safety and the need for isolation has literally changed our world as well. Let’s just say, it has made me reevaluate some things. Maybe for you too?
This pandemic is something unlike anything we have ever encountered before and probably will not have to face to this extent ever again, if we are lucky. I’m sure we’re all feeling a little unsteady as friends, family, communities, work-life and pretty much every facet of life is experiencing this gigantic and unexpected plot twist.
Current events got me thinking about a lot of things especially about the people I’m connected with for whatever reason. Some I know mostly offline, others online and offline, and some it’s only online and we’ve literally never met. I’m thankful for social media connections but these platforms don’t necessarily keep us in touch all the time. It is nice though when we do “talk” from time to time, so thank you for that. If this year teaches us anything, maybe fortifying connections will be one thing we’ll do right?
Let me get to the point of this post and why I decided to send it out on this platform. I’ve been genuinely wondering how everyone is feeling this year. With my own feelings being off-kilter at times, I thought I surely can’t be the only one. Since social media doesn’t always give us an accurate picture of people’s lives, my thought was “let’s talk about what’s going on.” I really think it’s ok to feel whatever we are feeling right now but keeping connected through it is also key.
So how is everything impacting you? Need to rant or cry? Have you found unexpected positives during these times? Do you have a close social network that you can reach out to if things are not going so well for you? Have you been able to keep the stress level down enough to not feel overwhelmed? Have you started something new? Is there anything you need to feel better? Feel free to comment here or if you’d rather have a private conversation, email me at email@example.com
I look forward to hearing from you but if not (and that’s ok too, whatever you feel comfortable with), I just wanted to let you know that I care.
tumbling thoughts ricochet
in the gray matter
plinking to the next
in the series
of many bubbling up
one after the other
filling up the braincase
a headache soon to follow
but there is no stopping
the emergency du jour
life doesn’t stop
because we’re weary
but it ends
when we give up
and give in
the reserve we lose
with each assault
and gain back ten-fold
with each victory
for the next onslaught of life
slapping into us
being in it
steps boldly planted
hoping for outcomes
giving space to skip freely
in this one life