
always the dread at midnight
assuming a million attempts at slumber
closing my eyes with hope
shutting down my mind
oblivion is beckoning
when i finally do
i can’t stay asleep
waking every few hours
yet still hoping for a longer stretch
that never comes
then the light fills the room
and all i want to do
is stay in bed
sinking in deeper
to the dreams which also keep me awake
is this the prelude
to wishing for my demise
slower starts every day
feeling the energy drain away
as sleep doesn’t revive me anymore