Reblog – Loneliness and me

I hope you enjoy this piece as much as I did. It was achingly human.

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Loneliness and me.

  

 

I found myself dwelling in the past
looking for the remains of the old me
wondering, how I used to feel.

What I found was

The love in my blood had drained
The trust I had in people had died
And the loneliness had embraced me
Since the night I stayed awake and cried.

Should I fear it, I questioned
What makes me a human, I don’t feel it anymore
Its been a while since I have felt a touch

I haven’t been touched in a while
touched by kindness
touched by love
touched by affection
I’m locked inside a prison of isolation

No one has come to see me yet
No one tried to free me yet
No one seems to be bothered by my absence
No one cares if I’m doing okay or not.

So I’ve decided to adopt it
Embrace the loneliness to used it for good.

I shut myself in
far away from the world
from the world where nobody cared anything I said

I start to live on my own
inside a big empty hall,
I start to explore,
explore the walls
see if they can protect me
or can they be broken by the storm

The storm lurking outside
waiting for me to go out
so it can devour me from inside

I live by myself
drawing, writing, praying.
drawing poetry, writing stories and saying my prayers
so I can learn to appreciate my solitude
and turn my flaws into art.

Do Different

Untitledtime has no beginning and no end
your stint is somewhere on the spectrum

a calendar year is a social construct
that has a beginning and an end

don’t be fooled
by limitations

challenge yourself not to live
in the shoes of others

january is not the only time
to give attention to behaviors

your birthday is not the only time
to consider the realities of your last

summer isn’t the only time
the sun shines

mondays are not the only time
to be frustrated about waking up

holidays are not the only time
to enjoy family and friends

christmas is not the only time
to give presents and thanks

40 hours is not the only time
you should labor and sweat

babies being born is not the only time
new life should spring forth

weddings are not the only time
it becomes fashionable to love

new years is not the only time
to do different

your whole life is the only time
to do it your way

Sublime Cruelty

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Luis Galvez – Unsplash

hard efforts
fortunes stolen
earned rewards
but no joy

life is hard
and it sucks
some benefits
you’ll reap

other times
none
just misery
and defeat

but you start
again
keep going
till death

taking small
joys
when they
come

each one
a tiny 
victory
to savor

hoping 
the next
chapter
won’t kill you