How Dare You?

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“When you went away, with you went your special face.”
Keith Garrett excerpt from When You Went Away

yes
OMFG YES

it all went away

this face
adoring you lovingly

a killer smile
appreciating your charm

these lips
so moist, waiting

bright eyes
only for you

it’s all gone now
but you’re bitching about

my…

attitude
demeanor ————– when it’s a direct consequence of your piss poor behavior
compassion

WTF DID YOU EXPECT?!?!?!?

Obvious Deception

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i’m not the enemy

wrong
you were never a friend

friends will…
listen
offer a shoulder to cry on
give tissues as needed
nurture
be excited to be with you
tell the truth
protect
support
engage
comfort
laugh with you
act like your #1 fan
shield you from oncoming shit
be ready and waiting

me having to stand up for myself
and up to you
proved once and for all
you were never willing
to give what should have
come so naturally

 

Betrayal

Your actions made me feel like I wasn’t special to you.

You claimed…
     I was important to you. Did you show it?
     I was a good friend. But not enough for you.
     You loved me unconditionally, but I was too much to take.
     I was unique and different, but I was too combative.
     I was such a role model, but indeed too honest for you.
     It’s good that I’m honest. But I just wasn’t sensitive to others.

I was just me.
And you didn’t know how to take me.

Then I doubted myself because of you.
I shouldn’t have.

Our connection ceased to exist because of your selfishness and your ego.

A war of two individuals with no victory for you or me.
You gave up while I was actually still fighting for us. 

Then I let you go…. willingly.
Self-preservation was required.
I realized that all you would do is continue to injure me.

Just know…

I am important. 
      I have value. 
           I am special.   
               And you will never fuck me over again.

Let Me Go

need strength to walk
away from pleasure and pain
the remnants of our past
keep me connected to you

my brain thunders
with the memories
of our souls being as one
the connection everlasting

a fleeting hope of resurrection
pins me to you still
a false statement of contrition
tires my commitment

stop playing games
with my affection
break this hold
if it’s not real

please let me break free

Inspired by Reena’s Exploration Challenge Week 63 
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