I’m Meant For Others

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Monica Silva

you may not like my style
that’s your right
who I am
serves me well enough

your critique
does not
decide my fate
life goes on without you

deaf ears
small minds
little hearts
not my tribe

how I feel
what I say
when I project
it’s all reserved for those who care

 

Endured Anguish

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KatJ

coming up on 13 years
the memory
the emotional gut punch
still
gnaws in my belly
at the recollection
of that move of yours
your betrayal
such poor form
to hold hidden fierce truths
years of lies
went by
camouflaged in my perceived sincerity

it’s what fools don’t know
that keep wretched people
like you
in the spotlight
of adoration
but no more
it’s time
you become the stranger you are
because you weren’t real
ever
not now
and certainly not in the past

she, who will never be recalled
will no longer
make me grit my teeth
send a surge thru my stomach
no longer
will i care
no longer
will i wince at the mention of your name
you don’t deserve to take up any room in my headspace
or my heart

Interactions

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Best friends
know all the parts of you
are the holders of your broken and healed parts
cherish your being
drop everything to prop you up
talk you through your misery
share their joy intensely
always excited for all the chatting to be had

Close friends
care for your welfare
hug away the fear
delighted in your presence
make the effort to spend time
always just a phone call away
treasure the occasional company
are trustworthy until they are not

Acquaintances
offer condolences
say awww with a forced enthusiasm
talk about you as necessary
wish you the best
don’t remember important things
say hi and bye fairly quickly
frequently disappear from your life

Enemies
smile with the intent of doing damage
set sabotage in motion
talk trash behind your back
mind fuck the real friends
suck the air out of a room
have nothing good to say
lie to get what they want

May you have more than just a single digit number of best friends,
a whole community of close friends, a nominal amount of acquaintances,
and be spared enemies as you travel down your timeline.

Shades Of You

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anticipating honesty
searching for it in your eyes
show me the good
the ugly
the meh

looking for your soul
needing to know your essence
in your lit up expressions
and the tears you may shed
or in the bored yawn which escapes

leaning into what you offer
questioning
will you match up to my humanity
or disappoint my sensibilities
are you my friend or foe

Heart Turner

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When I make the effort
to dig deep
into who you are,
know you are loved.

In awe,
inspired,
captivated,
interested,
dazed,
uplifted.
Yes, in love with your being.

I’ll align myself
up close,
breathing in your talent
and exhaling
knowledge and pride.

You’ve won my heart.

Obvious Deception

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i’m not the enemy

wrong
you were never a friend

friends will…
listen
offer a shoulder to cry on
give tissues as needed
nurture
be excited to be with you
tell the truth
protect
support
engage
comfort
laugh with you
act like your #1 fan
shield you from oncoming shit
be ready and waiting

me having to stand up for myself
and up to you
proved once and for all
you were never willing
to give what should have
come so naturally