growth – I Write Her

With Each Step

Published on April 22, 2024 by Susi Bocks12 Comments

Inspired by What do you see #235

at a tender age
we’re not yet geared
to think we inhabit a greater space

we plod along
open to new experiences
and growth opportunities

but when greatness is felt
finally
we look as tall as we project

Springing

Published on March 30, 2024March 25, 2024 by Susi Bocks19 Comments

seasons change again
renewal and hope emerge
growth is possible

A Human Failing

Published on January 20, 2024January 12, 2024 by Susi Bocks7 Comments

unlucky are we
when a contretemps occurs
perhaps leading to a falling-out

what was once whole
now a million pieces of shambles
the delicate rebuilding begins

it can be done
the requirements are many
for the repair to endure

do you possess maturity?
a genuine and pure intention?
are you willing to reflect?

well?

New Path

Published on October 17, 2023October 17, 2023 by Susi Bocks26 Comments

had lacked the courage
now choosing to thrive in life
valuing my worth

Originally posted October 13, 2018, on I Write Her.

Abating Sins

Published on November 26, 2022November 19, 2022 by Susi Bocks18 Comments

the slickness of my tongue in youth
divulged my immaturity
when speaking untruths to get my way

at the liquor store
with a fake id
batting eyelashes for rum

at school
with drama-filled explanations
of why homework wasn’t turned in

at home
the walls cringing with angst
from screams between generations

at parties
braggadocious and vain
impressing the girls and boys for attention

as a fledgling human
i excelled in drama
yet aging now prefers that the lies come to an end

Success In The Lineage

Published on October 23, 2022 by Susi Bocks5 Comments

with grief our ancestors sigh
their wants poke through a small crevice in time
and like salt to a wound
the descendants take the old to the edge
with their newer knowledge
the youth lifted imposed blinders
they put on their tough coat of skin
and created their field of dreams
the depths of which were endless
the utterances and murmuring of the past
comes from ancient bruises
that this generation wants no part of

***Inspired by The Sunday Whirl – Wordle #575***

Reblogs – Breaking the Silence and Fire & Female

Published on August 24, 2022August 19, 2022 by Susi Bocks2 Comments

Self-repair is an arduous task, isn’t it?

how? by Breaking the Silence

I hope for a change as I age
lost in my hopes I’ve given all control
to randomness of life and people I don’t like
I could claim it now
it’s true that we have the power to change our lives
but I feel so weak and I don’t know how….

The Heat of Chaos by Fire & Female

I am not okay.
I am a total mess
back on the floor of
a home that has been
drenched in lighter fluid
and intentionally set on fire.
The walls are hot with flame,
the linoleum is melting under me,
but I remain curled up on the floor.
I want to cry out from the pain
as my skin is singed with
empty promises and
violent threats and
touch I did not authorize,
but the heat of chaos dries my eyes
and tells me I cannot cry here.
I watch as my safe space disintegrates,
crying out for someone to just
come and fucking rescue me.
I am not okay.
I am suffocating under the weight of
beams of complex trauma and
posts of vicious assault and
cement blocks of violation.
My voice is too tiny to hear,
or maybe no one fucking cares,
so I curl up tighter in my place,
allow the inferno to engulf me;
a reminder no matter how hard
I try to extinguish the fire,
I will always go up in flames.

Reblogs – Cassa Bassa & Tom Alexander

Published on May 18, 2022May 15, 2022 by Susi Bocks4 Comments

Pain buckles your inner state making recovery incredibly difficult. With every last bit of strength you have, choose to heal instead. Live again.

Dark Mood by Cassa Bassa

My thoughts
get stuck
in a thick tar swamp
knowing
that I am drowning
further below
but not quite
the end

Struggling is useless
Letting go is impossible
Tangled in poison syrup

In pitch dark night sky
all the stars
give up on me
They blink out
So
I settle in
being lost
dying alive
alone