Flames

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let’s light up
be my flame
a hot warmth
scorch me with tenderness
burn me with excitement
dance for me
with teasing licks
rage inside me
extinguish me
but
don’t ever burn out

 

 

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I Won’t Tell You “I Told You So”

*deep sorrowful sigh

I’m sorry. So, so sorry. 

I didn’t succeed in saving you from your fate.

You’re broken now. The trust is gone, and so are your reserves. Your faith in love is shattered. It seems utterly unbelievable to have made it to this place of darkness. But you’re here now… and I’m hurting with you, dearest.

Oh pain, please just go away! Leave him alone. The agony is too much for tender shoulders to bear. Ease up… I beg you.

You’ll get through this, people say. It doesn’t feel like that when you’re in the thick of it though. But know this… I’m here till the tears stop rolling, the deep ache subsides and the reality of moving on alone becomes easier to accept. Whatever you need, love… I promise.

I’m here for you. Always.

*Originally published on PhiloSusi 4/17/16

The Way To Love

Love soothes, but only with genuine empathy. 
Don’t remove the struggle from my control. 
Let me gain the knowledge I need to grow. 
Be by my side, watch me heal. 
See the places where it takes me.

Love doesn’t fix things. It just eases the conflict. 
Don’t be the answer to my problems, my wannabe protector. 
Be my companion on my own personal journey. 
Enjoy my company, enhance my experience, 
and inspire me by the path you take.

Love doesn’t happen in a vacuum. It needs you and me, together. 
Free from distrust, anxiety, worry, anger, and shame. 
It’s a warm place, filled with comfort and ease. 
It’s a space where wholeness resides. 
 Our happy place created together.  

Love feels easy, but people are hard. They’re complicated and stupid. 
Don’t sabotage a good thing, intentionally or unintentionally. 
Remember I’m who you love; you know why you do. 
Fill any distance with kindness and care. 
Especially those times when you’re sad.

Love always wants more quality-rich lingering moments of sweetness. 
Any effort on your part to provide them is cherished. 
Your reward is acquiescence to almost anything. 
Comfort and pleasure is our prize. 
Don’t hold back. Give me what I crave.

Love is required. And love is needed.                         

Betrayal

Your actions made me feel like I wasn’t special to you.

You claimed…
     I was important to you. Did you show it?
     I was a good friend. But not enough for you.
     You loved me unconditionally, but I was too much to take.
     I was unique and different, but I was too combative.
     I was such a role model, but indeed too honest for you.
     It’s good that I’m honest. But I just wasn’t sensitive to others.

I was just me.
And you didn’t know how to take me.

Then I doubted myself because of you.
I shouldn’t have.

Our connection ceased to exist because of your selfishness and your ego.

A war of two individuals with no victory for you or me.
You gave up while I was actually still fighting for us. 

Then I let you go…. willingly.
Self-preservation was required.
I realized that all you would do is continue to injure me.

Just know…

I am important. 
      I have value. 
           I am special.   
               And you will never fuck me over again.

Let Me Go

need strength to walk
away from pleasure and pain
the remnants of our past
keep me connected to you

my brain thunders
with the memories
of our souls being as one
the connection everlasting

a fleeting hope of resurrection
pins me to you still
a false statement of contrition
tires my commitment

stop playing games
with my affection
break this hold
if it’s not real

please let me break free

Inspired by Reena’s Exploration Challenge Week 63 
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End Of Innocence

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One of the most powerful art pieces from Burning Man: A sculpture of two adults after a disagreement, sitting with their backs to each other. Yet, the inner child in both of them simply wants to connect. Age has many beautiful gifts but one we could live without is the pride and resentment we hold onto when we have conflicts with others. The forgiving, free spirit of children is our true nature. Remember this when you feel stubborn.
~ https://me.me/i/one-of-the-most-powerful-art-pieces-from-burning-man-9259489~

 

seething in silence, hot tears to the inside

wanting resolution in a war of no words

terrified to lose you but only wanting to win

the walls are getting thicker, higher

harder to tear down

we are a problem not wanting to be solved

Shhhh…

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“No one can know, Tom. I’m afraid of what will happen!”
“Don’t you think I know that, Sherry?”

Both quietly uncomfortable carrying their heavy load. The sweat on their brow evident from the efforts of hauling this load to the pier.

Pausing briefly, they looked at each other.

“Are you ready, Sherry?”
“Yeah, let’s do this, Tom.”

They watched as the suitcase dropped in the water. Bubbles immediately appeared after it plunged into the water. The bricks helped to force it further down.

“I feel like I just lost my best friend, Tom.”
“Well, yeah, because you just did, Sherry!”

Inspired by Reena’s Exploration Challenge – Week 60