emotions – Page 3 – I Write Her

Reblogs – Jen Goldie & Marisela Brazfield

Published on January 19, 2022January 17, 2022 by Susi Bocks9 Comments

brown and green leaves on body of water — Jené Stephaniuk – Unsplash

Agonizing over chaos – whatever form it may take. Haven’t we all been there?

A broken Heart is caused by synchronized chaos
The result is:
agonized confusion,
shortness of breath,
a gaping mouth
sans sound,
silently screaming.

of us lost angels by Marisela Brazfield

promises are like water to me
for you they quench temporarily
all that i fear for you and us
like the thirst of the dying
i can stop making promises
that i won’t agonize over the shit disease insanity violence and utter hell that we both see
we can compromise and believe
that there will be promises of better life
like we will plant flowers
but they might not smell like roses
as the smell of decay clings
promises can be multi everything
disciplinary lateral purpose conscience
promises are sugar and wine
rat poison
one daft note fleeting in the wind
a fart or love
i can’t tell where we are going
or how to get on this new road
let’s not make promises anymore
let’s just stay eye to eye
let’s just see what i will do
how i will move and act and love and lose
i refuse to promise that i will not turn the other way
if you don’t promise that you will make this inferno go away
i will say that i can accept my heart broken
and that when the camera flashes your way
remember that humility diligence and hard work are the better red carpet accessory
for you

our queen of us lost angels

Self-Care

Published on December 28, 2021December 28, 2021 by Susi Bocks6 Comments

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I Write Her

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I
cannot
have you suck
the life from me.
My own deep wounds need some attention now.

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Dusk In My Soul

Published on October 19, 2021October 19, 2021 by Susi Bocks16 Comments

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I’ve gone dark.

Could be my pants, shirt, socks, underwear or bra, but rest assured, dark will be somewhere on my body. As dark on my skin as dark as my insides.

It will remind me to get back to the emotions that were lost and fragmented. The good ones that shattered, and then scattered everywhere; becoming thin and almost non-existent. Seems odd, doesn’t it? To select gloom to inspire me after it tore me apart first. It’s my visual sticky note of what I let happen to me. It’s what I must do in order to go on. Otherwise, I don’t think I would.

Every emotion that came at me… shook me… HARD.

I’m scared being left with the impression of nothing being good, ever again.

“See the light in others, and treat them as that is all you see.”
Dr. Wayne Dyer

That’s hard when…

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Skilled Response Required

Published on July 5, 2021July 5, 2021 by Susi Bocks8 Comments

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I’ve always said humans are both – detrimentally stupid and utterly complicated.

The wide variety of situations we find ourselves in and the sheer volume of inappropriate choices we make, show us time and time again we are. We depend on our feelings and instinct, and then stupidity inevitably makes an appearance. Full-on reaction mode.

The best stance to take in all complicated situations is to clearly and calmly reflect on what the hell occurred to create this current tizzy. Determining the next best, logical step to take would be most prudent.

It’s the guaranteed solution for less stupidity.

Complicated is a permanent state.

You’ll still need to buckle up.

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Churning

Published on July 1, 2021June 30, 2021 by Susi Bocks25 Comments

water waves under blue sky during daytime — ***Benjamin DeYoung – Unplash***

with tumult laying siege
the agitation taking hold
our vulnerability appears

sink or swim?

Published on June 28, 2021June 28, 2021 by Susi Bocks12 Comments

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And in that moment of forced togetherness
I felt like the boy eating off the filth of a paper city
I realised I’m forcing the same trash through my heart
In craving to be someone’s priority

Vasvi Gupta – excerpt from Reversed Smiles

Find the specific details on why you loved this person, and it’s okay to find yourself still loving this person, but you have to see that these qualities do exist with a person who’s waiting for you, who’s even willing to give you more.

Let go of the fantasy. Loss is a good place to love yourself more and work on forgiving yourself more.

Baby, don’t think that the time you spent with that person was lost for it has prepared you for this very moment, our conversation here.

Heartache may lead to the suicide of the mind but never of the soul.

Juansen Dizon – excerpt…