Mind Games

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Nobody ever says that, that those who fear falling in love have this tendency to be more affectionate and nurturing and gentle lovers. It’s not the fear of “falling in love” that they’re actually afraid of but the fear of “being in love.” The fear of being somewhere they’ve always wanted and the fear of not being worthy enough of it.
Juansen Dizon – Philophobia

 

I was the golden warrior.

Found my place, made my name.

I chose you.

You were deemed worthy.

But then you pulled away.

Stayed but let me wonder.

Who am I now without you really there?

Felt shaken, unsure.

Forced me to beg.

I wasn’t sure anymore if I was desirable.

Constant questioning.

How could you do this?

I trusted you to love me whole.

Honor and love me forever.

This is how you respect me?

I let you in believing I was worth so much to you.

But in the end, only you mattered.

17 thoughts on “Mind Games

  1. Very beautiful Susi. Such truthful words. It shows that we should not put our hopes on people. Regardless of how much they love us. When they get to be selfish they completely forget about everything and everyone, including those who are completely reliant on them, and focus on them.. only them.. and that is hurtful.

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