It’s odd to feel alive again after someone’s death. But, actually, it’s kinda refreshing.
I’ve had my share of dysfunctional people in my life. The most troublesome ones from my past are dead now. Other relationships that have died over the years are also thankfully in my rearview mirror. But not before enduring a brief stint of anger and sorrow, of course.
It sounds morbid but here’s to making clean breaks and fresh starts with a death!
Seriously, the result of those losses turned into a renewal of me. The chaos was over, for sure. Peace! No more “What’s going to happen next?” along with no more drama, of any kind. There wasn’t anything more to fight over, feel guilt or shame about. No more tears of frustration or anger. It was over. I was facing my future my way from that point on. I got to say a final goodbye to the shit storm those relationships held over me.
I could breathe again, and more importantly, I could live.
I Write Her 
Very well written👍
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Thank you, Usha!
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I cannot wait for mine to be dead. Then I’ll write. Really write.
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Looking forward to the uncovering of your skeletons. :) I will tell you that I tried to do that initially, wrote about three chapters and had to quit because it was so depressing! But out of that came “Feeling Human” so do what you need to do! <3
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Oh! I will! Have actually. Book is done. And sent to a number of agents. They haven’t the balls to touch it. Not yet.
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Awesome! I’m glad you could do it! :) Wishing you much success!
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Why were you not able to break apart from such toxic relationships when alive?
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Of those who did die, we were already distanced from another. I was primarily referring to their interactions with me were finally over and that was a relief. In those instances where I mentioned “relationships that had died”, I specifically removed myself to not be exposed anymore.
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Those painful interactions might be over with their death but how are you dealing with the same painful memories?
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I think this will continue to be a life-long introspection to gain healing and insight. The worst of it is over, I feel, but there’s always room for growth. :)
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Hi
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Hello
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How are you ?
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Doing well, you?
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