The Five Ws + One Bonus

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Art Rocks

who are you?
who are you really?

what you show, beauty
what you feel, ugly

where do you see this going?
where do you think?

when you laugh, it’s only all the right things
when you cry, in private

why do you hurt me?
why do you always hurt me?

how you act, pretentious
how i feel, awful

Patient

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Game of Thrones

In my moments of “you’re just too busy”
I’m waiting.

Your agenda is keeping you engrossed.
I’m waiting.

Interests pulling you away.
I’m waiting.

Mandatory manly needs more important at the moment.
I’m waiting.

Just an occasional shout-out would even feel ok.
I’m waiting.

Your work, so fucking important.
I’m waiting.

Your real duty, so obvious.
I’m waiting.

But I’m the needy one.
I’m the crazy one.
The demanding one.
Too fucking sad you got stuck with this woman’s impatience.
You lament.

She’s beyond caring what your reaction may be.

#growthefuckup

 

 

Victories

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Ash D. Solomon – Lucid Being

finally tasting
what it means to be proud
of myself
it took too many years
for me to be free
from the contempt
the shame
your shame
forced on me
always making me feel smaller
than you were
knocking me down
me losing my identity
giving up my right to believe in myself

what a horrible mother you were
damn you

treading water
for years
wasted years
of frustration and tears
pushing hard
to break barriers
and maintain
sure would have been easier
knowing my value

you were supposed to be on my side
damn you

did it without you
lived an honorable, scarred life
healed all the wounds
inside and out
ups and downs
gains with each effort
failure was not
an option
because

you weren’t ever my safety net
damn you

me
now
so much better than what was
my time has come
achieving my greatness
feeling good in my skin
owning the center
whole, and comprehending peace
it raises me above your pettiness
and your disgusting competition
finally

damn girl, 
so proud of you

Self-Imposed

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do this, then what
do that, then this

options, directions, decisions
helpful? maybe, maybe not

go one way
minute relief

go another
worse than before

they say prioritize
your suffering

work on the major
then tackle the minor

it’s all still chaos
decision or indecision

shackled in pain
cutting out hope

Sublime Cruelty

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Luis Galvez – Unsplash

hard efforts
fortunes stolen
earned rewards
but no joy

life is hard
and it sucks
some benefits
you’ll reap

other times
none
just misery
and defeat

but you start
again
keep going
till death

taking small
joys
when they
come

each one
a tiny 
victory
to savor

hoping 
the next
chapter
won’t kill you

End Of Innocence

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One of the most powerful art pieces from Burning Man: A sculpture of two adults after a disagreement, sitting with their backs to each other. Yet, the inner child in both of them simply wants to connect. Age has many beautiful gifts but one we could live without is the pride and resentment we hold onto when we have conflicts with others. The forgiving, free spirit of children is our true nature. Remember this when you feel stubborn.
~ https://me.me/i/one-of-the-most-powerful-art-pieces-from-burning-man-9259489~

 

seething in silence, hot tears to the inside

wanting resolution in a war of no words

terrified to lose you but only wanting to win

the walls are getting thicker, higher

harder to tear down

we are a problem not wanting to be solved