with shame i hide
within the norms of society
disguising, even to myself,
my true desires
our friendship turning romantic
confuses me further
your charisma enchanting me
your song lifting my spirits
what a mind
smart, decisive and creative
your care and concern
envelops me decisively
the air around you
light
smoothing these edges of mine
adjusting my rough attitude
my mother loves you
as do i
but can this love sustain
with this private dilemma
i think i desire men
This is in response to Val’s request for poetry for National Poetry Month Scavenger Hunt aka NPM 21. The piece above is about a lost love.
I Write Her 
To be ourselves, without pretence, free moment by moment and in all our glorious confusion.
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Yes, may we all have those lives!
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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Ah, this is so tragic! Now there will be two bruised souls… I once said to my niece that the worst part is not knowing, not decided – and said that one should make a decision and live it. She came out to her family 2 years later….
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Yes, it was. Glad to hear she spoke her truth. 🙂
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Interesting poem Susi!
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Thanks, Sadje! Chuck suggested I try writing from the male perspective. This situation actually involved myself and male friend from my past who hadn’t come out yet.
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I thought as much. It’s a confusing situation for someone to be in.
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Yeah, it was. I always said that if I could have had a combination of him and the best parts of my ex-husband, that would have been my perfect match. But then I wouldn’t have my oldest son right now. It all works out the way it works out. 🙂
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Perfect is seldom found in life and things happen as they were meant to be.
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Maybe not perfect but it wouldn’t have been the best of both. I think I could have gotten along fairly well with that combo. 🙂
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😍👍
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We need to understand that love does not understands choosing. We as majority should accept and allow the LGBTQ community to thrive in the society.
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Absolutely correct!! Thanks for your comment. 🙂
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What ever your desire is in life, i will forever love you my friend.
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Acceptance is key. Thanks for that, Jack! 🙂
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