& Sadje’s What do you See #57
it was coming
i knew it with certainty
and distractions from the truth
failed me
when the phone call came
i braced myself in steely opposition
hardening my body against the cruel words
i was about to hear
she’s dead
only screams of sorrow
and heavy sobs of tears escaped me
i was now in a world
which felt empty and hollow
her eagerness to listen
her kind and gentle ways gone
the smiles and caring on her face
would happen no more
i pushed the receiver from my ear
as if to push away the truth
but knowing that mourning had begun
a new reality, one hard to face
feeling empty without her presence
i was born into a lonely place
her voice and body only in memories now
i miss her grace, her love and her acceptance
time took forever to heal the loss i felt
the place in my heart where she took up residence
darkened, and shriveled up
the air thicker as i inhaled only tears
the light she shone came to an end
but the warmth she gave continues
i always try to celebrate the day she was born
but the day she left, i mourn
#Whatdoyousee
Image Credit – Angéle Kamp @ Unsplash
I thank VJ and Sadje for inspiring thoughts of my special friendship. Guess I needed a good cry today. I dedicate this piece to Bana – a wonderful human being and such a catalyst for good – she will always be remembered with a smile and a tear.
I Write Her 
Lovely, Susi. A very timely piece for me as I remember my father in this week between the date of his passing and his birthday, just one week short of his 90th, five years ago.
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Awwwww, Sorry for your loss, Chris. ((hugs))
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Thanks, Susi. Time has softened the blow and happy memories have replaced those of the last difficult days (mostly).
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Thank goodness looking back is not as painful. That is really all we can hope for. ❤
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Beautiful poem. Could relate to it. Somehow, my mind forgets the day my loved ones were lost. I do remember their birthdays.
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Thanks, Usha! I wish I could forget the death date. 😦
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Beautiful words and I think we should remember everyone we have lost through death with a smile and a tear. Also remember we will see them again. ❤👩🦰🧡🦊🍂🍁
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Thank you, Carolyn!
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Such poignant feelings coming through your words Susi. A real sense of loss here. Thanks for this heartfelt poem.
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Thank you, Sadje. Yes, what I lost was a connection I’ve missed every day since 2003. It is on my mind every day.
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I could read that in your poem.
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Thanks for your understanding.
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Always welcome
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We should all be so fortunate to have someone like your Bana. You were blessed and no doubt a blessing to her.
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I feel like she was an important part of my life and gained so much from our relationship. It definitely felt mutual but I wasn’t the only person who benefitted. She was such a good person who impacted many people.
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Now I’m having that good cry with you….thanks for sharing.
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It’s a good but somber place. I hope it was cleansing for you, VJ.
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Indeed
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❤
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So well penned and beautifully poignant.
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Thank you so much, Goff!
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Pleasure. Great piece. Happy Tuesday
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