I have measured out my life with coffee spoons.*
Every damn day. This life, a daily grind of excruciation.
Always having to adjust mentally, physically and emotionally.
Moving through my day as cautiously as possible.
Pushing through the pain, feeling productive & proud.
I’m beyond the agony when I’m able.
But some days I have no spoons and I go
Down, down, down into the darkness of the grave**
*Source: “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock” by T.S. Eliot
**Source: “Dirge Without Music” by Edna St. Vincent Millay
Excellent response, I relate in lots of ways.
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Thanks, Michael!
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Sometimes really feel like this. very well described. Nice take.
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Thanks, Indira!
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Welcome, dear.
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Yep. Even taking my aunt to the doctor takes lots of spoons. I’m not near as bad as others, but it takes its toll.
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I hear ya, Ruth. ((Hugs))
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i thought about measuring out my life spooning but couldn’t get enough cooperation from others
i liked your poem. it made me consider easing off on the coffee
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Well, that’s another way of looking at that title. 😉
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Powerful! ❤
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Thanks, Deborah! ❤️
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Very well written. Fits the brief so well b
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Thank you, Sadje! ❤️
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You’re welcome Susi.
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Reblogged this on Reena Saxena and commented:
Using your spoons …. by Susi Bocks
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Using your spoons ….. by Susi Bocks
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The pain of following mindless routines shows. Think about those who waste themselves on drugs. They measure hallucinations.
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Hmmm, if I’m understanding you correctly you’re saying mindless routines lead to drugs and thereby creates more pain to run from?
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So sorry for your pain.
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Thank you for you caring, Susan. I don’t suffer from physical pain daily but I do have several friends who have to. I was inspired to write this for them but also for others who have chronic physical or mental health problems. There are so many different demons that people battle where this “spoon theory” applies.
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