She

These words found at Fractal Enlightenment were a powerful reminder to me that I don’t always feel this way. Believing those words can be difficult when life drags me to dark places sometimes. Especially that last bit – deserving to be loved. It still pisses me off that situations in my past contribute to that feeling. Shitty parenting being the crux of it. My parents didn’t know how to do it right. They’re gone, and I’m still here. The aftermath of that was up to me to heal.

For the most part, I’m ok. Actually, better than just ok. My life is good and most of my moments are too. I’ve made sure to surround myself with people who ground me. Now, I just need to feel the words of this meme more days than not.

I guess working this out is a part of life’s journey.

14 thoughts on “She

  1. Being kind to myself is something that doesn’t come naturally at all, so I can imagine something of what you must be going through in your more vulnerable moments too, Susi. Life is a process, that’s for sure.

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  2. Your last sentence is the perfect panacea; all of us have to work out the problems; regardless of wether they are or aren’t our fault, all of us are responsible for dealing with our own problems.

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