now you are angry at god
are you angry at yourself
do you care we’ll lose you
feeling self-condemnation laying on your deathbed
regretting the deals with the devil
feeling sad you’re losing the battle
looking forward to the end yet
are your tears burning your face
ashamed you’re stinking of death now
you wanting smoke break time back
wishing you’d been smarter or stronger
was it worth the ugly cancer
was it worth losing all love
will you miss your dear family
was any of it worth it
surprised at how angry I am
you do know I am afraid
I Write Her 
Anger and fear can fuel each other. Whether one has faith or not, we hope for strength to fight our battles. Sometimes, anger and fear are what we need to survive.
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Most definitely. But it’s a fine line, like with any emotion. We must be careful not to stay embedded in those emotions.
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Yes, true. We need to move forward.
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anger and fear can be easily mistaken for the other, sort of a self defense mechanism
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Yes, exactly!
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Susi, A lot of energy is released in anger and denial; long ritual of protesting and blaming. The tears dry up; the fears subdued; energy is sapped. Prostrated, we either give up or turn around. No longer a battlefield. We soon learn to accomodate, or live with the enemy. We pick our strength or courage somewhere, such as poetry. It’s a therapy that works with me, with a diagnosis of liver carcinoma (HCC) , but the biopsy, and repeated liver scan fail to prove. Funny that I consent to such a circuitry at this age. Maybe the fear is repackaged.
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Or released?
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Maybe
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Hopefully. It’s hard to live with that anger.
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The energy released by the anger could be used positively in motivation of different perspective.
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It could be. That would be very productive.
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Faith is only believing what you’ve been told to believe by others that were told to believe, by people who would lie to your face to get you to believe only to get validation of their doubt. Nobody has seen anything! Never trust someone who will lie to you to make themselves a mentor. And rant away. Anyone that will love you over a belief will abandon you over belief!! True Dat! It’s a game you can win!!The key to understanding the mysteries is unbelief!! Not the other way around. Cntrl Alt Del
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Yep but not sure where that just came from?
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